Sigh..
I miss him.
The past few days have been a breeze. Somehow, i've been waking up in the morning with only one thing on my mind - Abby. Didn't really understand why i haven't been able to wake up before. Maybe i just couldn't accept the fact that i have been unaccepted, been taken advantage of and been lied to. But no way, no way am i gonna let that bring me down. I don't need you guys in my life. I deserve so much better than that.

Anyways, enough of yesterdays. All i wanna do now is to improve myself, and maybe do new stuffs. There's so much that i feel i should do, especially with Abby. I didn't use to understand, or take my time to educate myself about what he loved doing. Every time he tells me about his bicycles, his bikes or his math, i have this dumb blur look on my face. All i wanted to do before was my music, my music and my music. I guess coz most of my boyfriends were musicians, i had this natural instinct that i should do music as well (i'm not saying i'm not naturally inclined to it). Every relationship is different. Abby is not a musician (although he plays guitar) but i love him the same, hence i try to be interested in something he loves doing. And that is why i am thankful i love bikes!

"Somebody", used to complain, asking me why i'm always talking about bikes and blamed Abby for the influence. He said i've changed and no longer talked about my music or my drumming anymore. Well to that "somebody", i love bikes and i love riding them but it doesn't mean i've completely forsaken my drumming. It does not mean i've changed. I hope that explains it. Now go away and play fetch with your vicious puppy. *Growls!*

Right now, i feel so light and refreshed, like all my burdens have been lifted. I am so ready to take on new challenges and experience this new era of my life. I've been so oblivious to so many things before, it's time to open my eyes - open it wide! I'm gonna take time to explore the insides of my baby's head, understand him better, embrace him like i've never had. I'm contented with what i have now, and i gotta make full use of it! It doesn't matter whether i'm in a band, writing and performing or on the tracks riding some big ass motorcycle. As long as i am with the person i love, i am happy! :D

Booked my coming Traffic Police Test for my Class 2B licence. I have one more month to get ready. Once i pass, Kawasaki KSR here i come! Then, i can go off road with baby.. Ooo! I am so gonna go to Tristan Park with baby next month. Fun fun fun going off road on those cute little pit bikes!

Mwacks! I never regretted loving you. :D

Sigh..
I miss him.